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    About If I Stay

    The critically acclaimed, bestselling novel from Gayle Forman, author of Where She Went, Just One Day, Just One Year, and I Was Here.
     
    Now a major motion picture, starring Chloe Grace  Moretz! Includes exclusive interviews with Chloe Grace Moretz and her co-star Jamie Blackley.
     
    In the blink of an eye everything changes. Seventeen ­year-old Mia has no memory of the accident; she can only recall what happened afterwards, watching her own damaged body being taken from the wreck. Little by little she struggles to put together the pieces- to figure out what she has lost, what she has left, and the very difficult choice she must make. Heart-wrenchingly beautiful, this will change the way you look at life, love, and family. Now a major motion picture starring Chloe Grace Moretz, Mia’s story will stay with you for a long, long time.

    About If I Stay

    A special anniversary edition of Gayle Forman’s breakout bestseller, If I Stay, in a brand new look and with an exclusive new prequel!


         Everything can change in an instant. For Mia, the day started like any other, surrounded by a loving family, an adoring boyfriend, and a bright future filled with music and infinite possibilities. What she never expected is the choice before her now. Caught between life and death, between a happy past and an uncertain future, Mia has to contemplate everything she holds dear and make a choice: to go or to stay. 

         Heartwrenchingly raw and heartbreakingly romantic, Gayle Forman’s international bestseller asks the ultimate question: What would you do if you had to choose?

    About If I Stay

    The critically acclaimed, bestselling novel from Gayle Forman, author of Where She Went, Just One Day, and Just One Year.
     
    Soon to be a major motion picture, starring Chloe Moretz!
     
    In the blink of an eye everything changes. Seventeen ­year-old Mia has no memory of the accident; she can only recall what happened afterwards, watching her own damaged body being taken from the wreck. Little by little she struggles to put together the pieces- to figure out what she has lost, what she has left, and the very difficult choice she must make. Heartwrenchingly beautiful, this will change the way you look at life, love, and family. Now a major motion picture starring Chloe Grace Moretz, Mia’s story will stay with you for a long, long time.

    About If I Stay

    The critically acclaimed, bestselling novel from Gayle Forman, author of Where She Went, Just One Day, Just One Year, and I Was Here.
     
    Now a major motion picture, starring Chloe Grace  Moretz! Includes exclusive interviews with Chloe Grace Moretz and her co-star Jamie Blackley.
     
    In the blink of an eye everything changes. Seventeen ­year-old Mia has no memory of the accident; she can only recall what happened afterwards, watching her own damaged body being taken from the wreck. Little by little she struggles to put together the pieces- to figure out what she has lost, what she has left, and the very difficult choice she must make. Heart-wrenchingly beautiful, this will change the way you look at life, love, and family. Now a major motion picture starring Chloe Grace Moretz, Mia’s story will stay with you for a long, long time.

    About If I Stay

    The critically acclaimed, bestselling novel from Gayle Forman, author of Where She Went, Just One Day, and Just One Year.
     
    Soon to be a major motion picture, starring Chloe Moretz!
     
    In the blink of an eye everything changes. Seventeen ­year-old Mia has no memory of the accident; she can only recall what happened afterwards, watching her own damaged body being taken from the wreck. Little by little she struggles to put together the pieces- to figure out what she has lost, what she has left, and the very difficult choice she must make. Heartwrenchingly beautiful, this will change the way you look at life, love, and family. Now a major motion picture starring Chloe Grace Moretz, Mia’s story will stay with you for a long, long time.

    About If I Stay

    In a single moment, everything changes. Seventeen year-old Mia has no memory of the accident; she can only recall riding along the snow-wet Oregon road with her family. Then, in a blink, she finds herself watching as her own damaged body is taken from the wreck…A sophisticated, layered, and heartachingly beautiful story about the power of family and friends, the choices we all make—and the ultimate choice Mia commands.

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    About Gayle Forman

    Gayle Forman is an award-winning, internationally bestselling author and journalist. She is the author of Just One Day and Just One Year, and the companion e-novella Just One Night, as well as the New York Times bestsellers If I Stay and Where She Went. She lives in Brooklyn, New… More about Gayle Forman

    About Gayle Forman

    Gayle Forman is an award-winning, internationally bestselling author and journalist. She is the author of Just One Day and Just One Year, and the companion e-novella Just One Night, as well as the New York Times bestsellers If I Stay and Where She Went. She lives in Brooklyn, New… More about Gayle Forman

    About Gayle Forman

    Gayle Forman is an award-winning, internationally bestselling author and journalist. She is the author of Just One Day and Just One Year, and the companion e-novella Just One Night, as well as the New York Times bestsellers If I Stay and Where She Went. She lives in Brooklyn, New… More about Gayle Forman

    About Gayle Forman

    Gayle Forman is an award-winning, internationally bestselling author and journalist. She is the author of Just One Day and Just One Year, and the companion e-novella Just One Night, as well as the New York Times bestsellers If I Stay and Where She Went. She lives in Brooklyn, New… More about Gayle Forman

    About Gayle Forman

    Gayle Forman is an award-winning, internationally bestselling author and journalist. She is the author of Just One Day and Just One Year, and the companion e-novella Just One Night, as well as the New York Times bestsellers If I Stay and Where She Went. She lives in Brooklyn, New… More about Gayle Forman

    About Gayle Forman

    Gayle Forman is an award-winning, internationally bestselling author and journalist. She is the author of Just One Day and Just One Year, and the companion e-novella Just One Night, as well as the New York Times bestsellers If I Stay and Where She Went. She lives in Brooklyn, New… More about Gayle Forman

    Product Details

    Category: Teen & Young Adult Fiction | Teen & Young Adult Romance | Teen & Young Adult Social Issues

    Paperback | $5.99
    Published by Penguin Books
    Apr 06, 2021 | 272 Pages | 5-1/2 x 8-1/4 | Young Adult | ISBN 9780593403846

    Category: Teen & Young Adult Fiction | Teen & Young Adult Social Issues

    Paperback | $10.99
    Published by Penguin Books
    May 14, 2019 | 288 Pages | 5-1/2 x 8-1/4 | Young Adult | ISBN 9781984836502

    Category: Teen & Young Adult Fiction | Teen & Young Adult Social Issues

    Paperback | $10.99
    Published by Speak
    Apr 06, 2010 | 320 Pages | 5-1/2 x 8-1/4 | Young Adult | ISBN 9780142415436

    Category: Teen & Young Adult Fiction | Teen & Young Adult Romance | Teen & Young Adult Social Issues

    Mass Market Paperback | $7.99
    Published by Speak
    Mar 20, 2018 | 288 Pages | 4-3/16 x 6-3/4 | Young Adult | ISBN 9780451480644

    Category: Teen & Young Adult Fiction | Teen & Young Adult Social Issues

    Ebook | $5.99
    Published by Speak
    Apr 02, 2009 | 320 Pages | Young Adult | ISBN 9781101046340

    Category: Teen & Young Adult Fiction | Teen & Young Adult Social Issues | Audiobooks

    Audiobook Download | $15.00
    Published by Listening Library
    Apr 16, 2009 | 302 Minutes | Young Adult | ISBN 9781101052969
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    Praise

    “Beautifully written.”–Entertainment Weekly

    “A beautiful novel.”--Los Angeles Times

    “A do-not-miss story of love, friendship, family, loss, control, and coping.”–Justine Magazine

    “The brilliance of this book is the simplicity.”– The Wall Street Journal

    “A touching and thought-provoking novel.”–Romantic Times

    Author Q&A

    You started your career as a journalist and your first book is a travelogue about going around the world. Is YA literature a departure for you?

    Actually, it’s more of a homecoming. My first writing job was at Seventeen, where I spent five years on staff and as a contributor reporting the magazine’s social-issues stories. I loved writing for teens then because–contrary to popular opinion–they really care about serious issues (from child soldiers in Africa to kids embroiled in the drug war here) and the engage in their reading with such passion. So, now that I’m writing young-adult literature, it feels like I’ve come full circle.

    This book explores some serious themes. Why is this a book for kids and not adults?

    It’s a book for kids precisely because it explores serious themes. Teenagers are grappling with choices about life and love as much as adults, so why shouldn’t their reading reflect that? I don’t set out to write YA. It just seems like I’m drawn to stories about young people. That said, I think If I Stay is for adults, too. I love the idea of teens reading this book and then handing it off to their parents.

    Many key characters are serious musicians, and songs are referenced throughout the book. Are you a musician?

    No. Except for piano lessons when I was a kid and a brief spate of guitar playing in my teens, I’ve never played an instrument. I am, however, a huge music fan. And my husband is a musician; he was playing in a punk band when we met, so I’ve spent a lot of my life ensconced in that scene. I seem drawn to writing about musicians, though I’ve never been all that interested in the cello until Mia popped into my head.

    What inspired you to write this book?

    Music. Oregon. People I have loved. And unfortunately, the book is inspired by a real-life tragedy that happened several years ago.

    This is a book about death, but it’s not depressing. Why is that?

    Maybe because it’s really about the power of love–of family, friends, music–and therefore it ultimately affirms life.

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