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A mythic love story set in Trinidad, Ayanna Lloyd Banwo’s radiant debut is a spellbinding and hopeful novel about inheritance, loss, and love’s seismic power to heal.
In the old house on a hill, where the city meets the rainforest, Yejide’s mother is dying. She is leaving behind a legacy that now passes to Yejide: one St Bernard woman in every generation has the power to shepherd the city’s souls into the afterlife. But after years of suffering her mother’s neglect and bitterness, Yejide is looking for a way out. Raised in the countryside by a devout Rastafarian mother, Darwin has always abided by the religious commandment not to interact with death. But when the only job he can find is grave digging, he must betray the life his mother built for him in order to provide for them both. Determined to prove himself, Darwin finds himself adrift in a city electric with possibility and danger. Yejide and Darwin will meet inside the gates of Fidelis, an ancient and sprawling cemetery, where the dead lie uneasy in their graves and a reckoning with fate beckons them both.
CORBEAU
Chapter One
Morne Marie, Trinidad. Yesterday
Yejide
‘First thing you have to remember,’ Granny Catherine hold her granddaughter, Yejide close on her lap, ‘is that there was a time before time.’ She press the first layer of tobacco down into the ebony bowl. The flame from her silver lighter make a small blaze in the cavern of the bowl and the pipe settle between her lips. ‘Before we come to live in this house, before the settlement in the valley, before the quarries, when the forest was so thick that no man could cross it, Morne Marie was the home only of animals. But not like animals we see now, oh no!’ Catherine open her eyes wide and the blue smoke curl out of her nostrils ‘The ocelots was big like tigers, the deer run so fast that no man could catch them even if he dare enter the forest to hunt them, and the small green parrots that sing at dusk was as big as the blood-red ibis that live in the swamplands. The animals could talk to each other, just like I talking now, and they build a mighty city in the forest. But this city was nothing like Port Angeles. It had no buildings, no boundaries, no gates and the animals live together without territory to guard and borders to mind.
But one day a warrior wander into the forest. He see that it was full of animals to hunt and fruit to eat. When he look at the trees he only see the houses he could build, and when he look at the land he only see what he could take. The animals try to talk to him and tell him that there was so much more there than what he could see, but he did not know their language and so could not understand them.
That warrior bring more warriors and with the warriors come builders and with the builders come farmers and with the farmers come priests. With the priests come governors and with the governors come death.
‘But the animals fight them, right?’ Yejide squirm on her granny lap. Nothing she love more than this full-cupboard-feeling: the sweet smell of tobacco, the even rhythm of the rocking chair, the green hills and her granny face full of story. She think of the sharp teeth of the ocelots and the tight grip of the macajuel that could suffocate a man in its coils; no way any human with just two legs, very small teeth and no poison at all could ever defeat the wild animals of the forest.
Catherine look down at her and puff on her pipe, ‘Who telling the story, you or me?’
Yejide grin and quiet down again.
The animals had always live in peace, but they know then, that it was time for war. The battle rage bloody and terrible. The quarry you see there — Catherine point out the window to the deep brown crater on the hillside — was where the animals make a stand in a battle so fierce that it leave scars on the hills.
All that killing cut the forest deep. Wounded, it went into mourning and that bring the longest dry season ever in Morne Marie. The rivers hide in the earth and the trees wilt and die away. The ocelots shrink small like house cats, the howler monkeys get timid, and the deer and manicou and lappe who had live in peace before, start to look at each other and see food. The warriors suffer too, for no one, man nor animal, could survive when nature decide to withhold its bounty.
Then one day when all were weary, and it look like the war would claim not only the fighters but the whole forest, a great storm set up in the hills. Fat, grey clouds empty out into the green and the men and animals rejoice to see the rivers rise again, and the forest drink deep of the rain. Thunder and lightning pelt down for three days and three nights. But remember I tell you, this was a time before time, when a tree could reach full-grown in a day and a boy could reach manhood in a night, so this storm was longer and fiercer than any of the animals had ever see before. The earth slide down the hillsides and crash into the valley below. Trees that live longer than any animal could remember lose their hold on the earth and topple over. The rivers burst their banks and rush over the land. Rejoicing turn again to sorrow. It come like the whole forest turn on them and demand its share of the lives who defile its sacred places with war.
Now, the green parrots, the ones who still cackle and sing and chatter, just like you — Catherine pinch Yejide’s lips together stop her from giggling — well, they were wiser than any of the animals give them credit for. The parrots watch the rain and watch the hills and watch the rivers and watch the dead pile high. They gather together in the branches of the last sacred silk cotton tree and hold a council. At the council’s end, the parrot battalion split and divide in two. One half fly to the east and the other half fly to the west.
The parrots that went west became the little green birds we see today, those that sing and fly toward the setting of the sun. But those that went east toward the sunrise mute their green feathers to black and curve their beaks into sharp hooks. Their bodies get fat and their wingspan stretch so wide they darken the land below them as they fly. They release one last great song that make all the animals and men tremble, then grow grey hoods around their heads and necks that silence their throats forever.
‘You know what they turn into, Yejide?’ Catherine stare out the window, smile and puff on her pipe.
‘Corbeaux!’ Yejide cry out. She love getting the right answer. No matter how many times she hear the story, knowing the answer always make her feel grown-up and very important.
Catherine nod and pull deep from the pipe. ‘When the change was complete, they feel their bellies get hungry for flesh. They spread their wings wide and circle the land slow, searching out the dead. And with their new long, curved beaks and talons sharp like caiman teeth, they tear into the dead flesh of the animals who was once their friends and the men who was once their enemies. When they done, they take to the silk cotton tree again, leaving nothing but bone.
‘The living look on in horror to see the devouring of the dead. They don’t understand how the small birds they once knew could do something so terrible. But the chattering birds they knew were gone. They turn into something else entirely now. When the parrots shed their green and change their form, they take on a sacred duty – to stand at the border between the living and the dead. So they wait for the dying and watch over the carcasses and consume the flesh. And no one but the corbeaux know that is inside their bodies that the souls of the dead transform and release.
Catherine lift Yejide off her lap and put her to stand on the wooden floor in her white patent-leather church shoes. ‘Right. Story done. Now make sure and put those away. And your nice dress. Hang it on the back of the chair in my room. Don’t let me come and find that you just leave it anyhow.’
But Yejide know the ritual well. ‘Story not done, granny. What happen next?’
Catherine look down at her granddaughter. Just now she would be too tall for little girl dresses, too grown to sit on her lap. But not yet — she reach her hand out and Yejide run back into her arms. Not yet.
‘Well, on the fourth morning of the great storm, when all the corbeaux stomach full and everyone weary with pain and grief, the storm stop. No more flood. Balance come back to the forest. But after they been saved, nobody like to think of who rescue them. In this way people and animals are the same. Everyone begin to fear the corbeaux. So, they fly away to live at the edges of the forest of Morne Marie. They alone know the world changing and it would have work for them in the cities of men to come. And so, like in all the great stories that change the world, over time everyone forget that the ending of the storm happen at the same time the corbeaux born. Everyone, of course, except the corbeaux’ – she bend close to whisper in Yejide’s ear – ‘we remember.’
Excerpted from When We Were Birds by Ayanna Lloyd Banwo. Copyright © 2022 by Doubleday. All rights reserved. No part of this excerpt may be reproduced or reprinted without permission in writing from the publisher.
